Lauren Silverman got candid about getting pregnant with Simon Cowell’s baby while she was married to her now-ex-husband.

The socialite referred to her 2013 pregnancy with her now-12-year-old son, Eric, as “one of the hardest times of my life” on Tuesday’s episode of the “Happy Mum” podcast.

“There are so many emotions that went with that, because it was the end of my marriage,” she said, alluding to her first husband, Andrew Silverman.

“It was one of the hardest times of my life, because — I don’t want to say regretful, because I don’t regret anything — do I wish it had happened a different way?” Lauren, 48, said. “Of course I do.”

“But I think everything happens for a reason,” she continued.

“It was just one of those moments where I knew it was right and that was what I wanted and that Simon was the person I wanted to spend my life with. And so, however we got there, I just believed that it was meant to be.”

Lauren and Cowell sparked affair rumors in 2012, but the latter’s lawyer denied the allegations, calling them “false” and “reckless,” per People.

However, the following year, news broke that the couple was expecting their first child together, with an insider telling the outlet that Lauren was “unhappy in her marriage” with Andrew.

The entrepreneur and Andrew filed for divorce shortly after 10 years of marriage when the pregnancy was revealed, and the latter released a statement, saying that he was focused on prioritizing their now-20-year-old son, Adam.

“When I got divorced … it wasn’t a great situation at all. It was terrible,” Lauren said on Tuesday’s podcast. “I feel really proud to say that … we are many years past that point. My ex and I, we do have a very nice relationship.” 

She continued, “As much as I wish I could go back and take away the hurt and take away the pain that it caused for my ex-husband and for Adam … it happened.”

Lauren recalled how she was in “fight or flight mode” due to the media frenzy surrounding her pregnancy, admitting she “was just trying not to fall apart.”

“Everywhere I went … it was just the way that people would look at me,” she said. “I was on the cover of every magazine and there were news stories about it …  it was just awful.”

“I felt like, ‘OK, this has happened. I’m a big girl. I’ve got to suck it up and get on with it. And whatever’s coming at me, I deserve it, I’ll take it and I’ll just keep my head down.’ And that’s what I did for a really long time.”

Cowell and Lauren welcomed their son in February 2014.

Lauren emotionally shared how the “American Idol” alum’s life “completely changed” shortly after.

The TV personality proposed to Lauren in December 2021. They have yet to confirm whether they are already married.