I'm gonna add my own here because I'm..I guess..a legitimate professional author....

I resonate with all of this so hard, on such a deep, personal level. One thing that money does, is it works as this balance sheet against what people say vs what they actually feel.

I've got 2000 followers. 2000 people who like me enough to click a button that tells this site "I'd like to see more of this person, please"

That's... immense. To say nothing of the political and social clout I've developed over the years.

But like the person from San Francisco, I feel like I have to make up for the fact that it's me.

Like John, I feel like yall don't or can't see that my life has value unless I'm saving the world AND begging for that value to take some kind of form that I can see and use in my real life.

Like Robin Williams, I am so terrified to stop talking because the moment I do, everyone's eyes turn away. People think I'm doing fine, but I'm not. There is no one taking care of me. There is no one here loving me in the quiet moments when I turn my phone off. There is no one visiting me or having coffee with me unless I loudly scream that I need it. Nobody local just... checks on me to say hi and tell me they love me.. just because they love me

That's not to say I get no support. I get massive support. Yall have literally been keeping me alive. People, especially people online, do check on me. But like...I'm.. kinda always asking

Because I've learned that I have to

I've learned that I should

And so I do.

And so I am. Right now. Asking you to love me.. even if I'm not saving the world at the moment. And if I do go quiet... please know that I haven't stopped needing support. Just stopped knowing how to ask for it

And that love that some of you give is more important than you know