Jordana Brewster Reveals She Had a Crush on Paul Walker

“Maybe I just wanted to punish myself for not doing what any self-respecting woman can do: carry her own child,” she added. “Pregnancy and childbirth were rites of passage, and I was grieving an experience I hadn’t known I even wanted in the first place.”

Indeed, Brewster—who filed for divorce from Form in 2020 before marrying husband Mason Morfit in 2022—shared her decision to welcome both her boys via surrogate “wasn’t entirely mine,” revealing she began to suffer from seizures when she was 28.

Sharing she was diagnosed with a cavernous malformation (CVM), which she described as “an abnormal cluster of tightly packed, thin-walled blood vessels, in the language area of my brain,” Brewster was warned against the complications the condition presented for pregnancy. 

“I checked in with my doctor as a precaution. What he told me surprised me: He thought the increased blood flow caused by pregnancy would make it dangerous for myself and the baby,” she explained. “He suggested surgery, but after a functional MRI showed that the placement of the CVM made it hard to reach and could put my ability to speak and read at risk, I decided against it. I chose gestational surrogacy instead.”

But the 46-year-old wasn’t prepared for the complicated feelings the decision would bring. 

“The preparation kept me busy, but it was empty. I was playing the role of mother-to-be while feeling nothing,” Brewster confessed of her road to motherhood. “The birth would change that, I was sure. I knew all about the overwhelming, profound love a mother feels for her child when she first holds him.”

Though she was hoping for something to “click” for her “maternal instincts,” Brewster shared that didn’t come until a bit later. Eventually, however, she got into the groove of motherhood. And in 2016, she decided to pursue surrogacy again to welcome her second son. 

In the years since welcoming her children, Brewster has accepted her path to parenthood. 

“The real work of motherhood isn’t just pregnancy. It’s in the small, invisible, daily acts: the playdates, food fairs, school meetings, emergency-room visits, the cosleeping,” she concluded. “It’s in how I give over my time, energy, and attention day after day. Becoming a mother is earned; it’s not a given.”

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