Denise—mom to kids Lola Sheen, 20, and Sami Sheen, 22, with ex-husband Charlie Sheen, as well as Eloise Joni Richards, 14, with ex-husband Aaron Phypers—also opened up about how the late actor helped her though some of her darkest periods.

“We’ve been each other’s rock,” the 55-year-old explained. “Our memories together are endless. You’ve had my back and protected me more than anyone. I don’t know what I’m going to do without you here. You’re my voice of reason & pillar of strength. Especially during this last year of pain & heartache.”

“And now I need you more than ever, for this pain and heartache losing you,” she added. “We thought we’d live forever or at least into our 90’s. Schweetbabe I will be looking for those signs. I need to know you’re still here with me. I love you so much & miss you dearly schweetbabe.”

After the Melrose Place actor died April 19 as a result of a heart attack—as his sister Shana Muldoon-Zappa told TMZ—Denise’s daughter Lola also spoke out, sharing she always hoped the former couple would rekindle their romance someday. 

“When i think of my mom i think of you,” Lola wrote in an April 20 Instagram post featuring a throwback snap of Patrick and Denise. “You guys came as a package and i’m so thankful i got to know you and witness a friendship so pure and special in front of my eyes.” 

“I always begged my mom i’m sure she told you that you guys would end up back together haha,” she added, “but i guess staying best friends was better anyways.”

For a look back at Patrick throughout the years, read on…