Rachel Bloom is opening up about ABC passing on the Do You Want Kids? pilot she co-wrote and starred in.

In a post on social media, Bloom got real about her feelings following “failure” to be picked up to series and all the hopes that vanished with it.

“Since people – including myself – mostly use this place primarily to post about success, I want to give a shout out to my other buddy, Failure,” Bloom posted on Instagram. “When a project dies, I mourn multiple things. I mourn the project itself, but I also mourn the life I thought I was going to lead with the project becoming a reality.”

She continued, “We made a show about multiple timelines in the life of a couple, so it feels appropriate to mourn the timeline I thought I was gonna have this year with this show. I thought I’d be flying to NY in May for Upfronts. I thought we were going to hire amazing writers for an LA-based writing staff. I thought we were going to start shooting in Los Angeles in August through October. We had so many episode ideas, multiple season arcs.”

Bloom said that “over the past 6 years I’ve mourned multiple failures, multiple timelines. But I never mourn the work.”

However, not all hope was lost, as the Crazy Ex-Girlfriend star and creator recalled that the comedy series was also a pilot that Showtime had passed on before it was picked up by the CW. Bloom developed the musical comedy as a premium half-hour, and when CW ordered it to series, she reformatted it to an hour-long network dramedy.

“And who knows? Crazy Ex-Girlfriend was a rejected Showtime pilot. Maybe this has a life somewhere else,” she added in the replies of her post.

Do You Want Kids? was a comedy pilot written by Bloom and her husband, Dan Gregor. The pilot was directed by Trent O’Donnell and starred Bloom as Rosy and Rory Scovel as Alex Vasilescu, a married couple who, in one universe, have a baby and, in the other, do not, and the many ways that huge decision alters their lives.